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October, 23

I took my exam, DLC, this morning. I think it's dead for the 5(/5) stars. Explanattions... 

The DLC is cut in several parts. First part (1.30), you take infos from written docus (6 here), and audios docus (2 here). It was okay, even easy, I understood all... But, you also have to prepare the questions you'll have to ask for 10 MINUTES phone part then. So it makes 1.15 for thesearch in documents in the end. The phone is the part when I shat myself I think. I passed on the question to beasked. Because to me it wasn't necessary to the whole thing. I went to much into details. But hopefully, I'm fluent, so I could blah my speaker. But I'm not happy with that part. Then, there're 20 minutes to prepare your oral. Good. The oral went god, hey, I'm fluent, that's a really good advantage. I was incredibly cool (but most of the time I'm very cool at exams, it's yesterday evening I was a little nervous), and I pointed a kind of third solution, I think no one else proposed that (my twisted mind :p thanks Chris, thanks XF). And then I had to write a memo/report. I had 40 minutes. It took me 20 minutes to write it. I'm so USED to writing on boards. A fluent written English. Then I took ten minutes to re-read it. I think I read it all SEVEN times lol So, for me, I'm severe with myself, so I give me a 3/5 level. More accurate 4/5. If they see more my fluency/nearly bilanguism now (wow, I'm happy, you know I've been targetting that since I was 12). I'm  disappointed because I think the thing I missed was because I lacke concentration (after more than one hour to foicus on the same thing), he yeah, I'm still in depression/treatment. I forgot to take my treatement this morning. I wouldn''t give me a 5, honestly, I would gie me  a 3. But criterias are supposed to be objective, only, people aren't. Results: November 18; 3 pm, on the net. 

PS: I was worried I wouldn't understand everything, but i was actually so easy, audio tunes, people. It felt great. It's like French :DDD So I think I achieved one of my dreams, I'm bilangual, now I  just have to live in an anglophone country to talk shit like y'all lol :p And I was cooler because Fox took one hour on his time to bring me there with the car. There was a radio show LOOOOLLLL and Fox sure. I was a little worried he missed one hour, because it's hard for him at work, he's got his job, his chief's job, and paid only like its job (grrr, I would kick their asses), and h does goood, but people are going away! (off the site). I mean, I'm lucky to have him, but THEY more, because there're ain't two brains like his. And what I give him is free. Fukcers. Flowery vocabulary, and I've got others. 

Beside that, the cats were both sick. I went 4 times to the vet, Nougat's vaccins, Scully was infected. Welll everybody's doing good now. I have a good vet, really she's great, she loves all animals, and treat creatures, any, humanly. I feel lucky she's got her work place so close. That feels good to have someone like her around. I feel it, it's not like pepe' who welcomes you to make it right, she's genuine. That's my "gift", I feel genuine peep' = ) 

So still on therapy, and doing things in my accordance. Yeah, easy said, do people really realizes how the world is today? But he's rigth, compromises, not suicide mission, in accordance with what I can take. Which means, not many people, not much noise. Unless I find a very "family" team (like the x files?). He says my difference shouldn't make me shy away, but just be, adn let myself in things I can do. I know, but lately, work is hard to find...

Then, well, I'm trying to make something for tomorrow evening. With Aurore. With Fox maybe. Or just Aurore and I. Well I want ot celebrate her driver's licence. She's 35 and her husband's wants to control (although she's not submissiveb, but there're children). And so I wanted to make a dinner, and a prezzie. Better if Fox is there.

I like to spend time also on facebook, with old school friends, or philes, or some family members. Actually, I'm a social person, just, I also need time alone, listening to mmusic, writing, reading, on the internet. Thats' why Fox and I get so well together. But he's "cooler" in the crowd. Definitely. And music. And all.  = ) I 've got bad moments still,a dn some crackages, but also good friends. I talk with "Gillian". She's that friend I talked about in "ways" my semi authobiographical stuff on that blog. 

And I eriously starting singing again. I quit smoking about 5 years ago. Incredible all I have back in my voice, and breath. I LOVE singing. If I weren't so an un'crowd person, that's what I'd do, something musical. I acted to. I used too. 2 years in primary school, 3 years in grade school, and I did some months at the art school. After all, my Godmother is a pianist and an artist, my mother was a lyrical diplomed singer, my other aunt is a pianist and dancer (high level), my grand-father was a tenot singer, trulmpetist, writer, and my father might be a writer. Writing, it's my stuff, singing and writing. Only, singing asks to let it go, what I need and do  better, and writing aslks more coherence and concentration. Concentration, like I wrote above,  is my black beats these days. But I still love writng, or I wouldn't be here. 

I just had other things to do lately, out of the exam. I'm on suicideforum.com   lately. I have support, but I also bring lots of support, and as many laughs as I can. That's how I see the world. And yeah, I'm a VERY introvert. But how else that together, humanly, do you want ot to work in harmony, for the end of times? 

This evening, if he wants to, it's Fox's massage. Meaning I do the massage. I'm not a haithian, but I'm not bad for a French girl :p 8 years and a half. We should forget of little flaws of these who've there so long, and value all the good they've done to us. I've got friends, some I've know sice I was born lol 2 exactly, and Melissa, she was borne before me, Fox, nearly 9 years. Gaby and Audrey I new respectively, in grade school, and primary school. David I've known since primary school too. And Frohike. I've knwon him since 2002. So 7 years, damn. I have few real friends but I keep them. And now Aurore, about 2 years, and it's supposed to go on. She's ultra cool, simple, open-minded, creative, the kind of people I surround myself with. 

I listened to a lot of music.  I don't know if I'll post right now. But I'll do. I'm listening, right now, to Mike Oldfield - The top of the morning. How I love it = )

Other facts: I made other friends on facebook. Philes too = ) My teman and I are 10th in the never ending XF quizz = ) But I target better, always = ) In the end, am I an INTJ, or INFJ? Both? Who cares. I am and I do. And It's a higher, and happier perspective on life. The heart of people. Yet, I still value the 3 I: Integrity, independence, intelligence. But without a pure, good, honest heart, it's worth nothing. 

Thanks to all the people who insipred me, and there're a lot. I'm ME, but I think it's a mark of intellingence, to consider, that other speaking, can be as right as you are. 

To them: FOX, Mulder, Melissa, GILLIAN, Chris Carter, Kim Manners (how much I loved you, you're one of these who keeps me alive, strangely, other XF crewsers, GODMOTHER, MOM

Galileo, Isaac Newton, Albert Einstein, Jules Verne, Robin Hobb, Homer simpson (yeah, he), Platon, Yann Barthez, Coluche, and nayone who's open-minded, humorors, for tolerating differences. And I must say Darin Morgan too, what a man like I love them = )

So a big HELLO/LOVE YOU to (the list might be long)(?):

Fox (mine, Chris), Flo, Coco, Audrey, Gaby, David, Aurore, Rose-Marie, Marjorie, Melissa, Mulder, Chris, Gillian, David, Martin, Jill, Laura, Flo, MOM, Pascal, Karl, Julie, Kate, Petra, Cecile, Agathe, Bayou, Freddy, Freddo, Yusuf, Brendan, Sabi, Julien,Severine, Chris (another), Chris (another else), Franck, Oussama, Thierry, Frederique, Gwen, Remi, Sophie, Olivier, Xavier, Patrick, Jennifer, Matthieu, Aude, Uncle Tasco, Granny, Papy François, Aunt Francie, Michel, Cindy, Jules, Soazig, Scarlett, Ben, Kassie, Clem, Claire, Sophie (another), Ron, Ronan (Irish guy, don't be so desperate!), Joan! Dolly, Bertrand, Damien, Yannick, Fred, Brice.... etc

There's os many of you, I'm sorry, I cant' name ALL the friends I've met. YES I'm a very introvert. But also, YES I love people, and mmmmmmore, I want to improve their condition, to all, and our world. 

And if you need, don't kill youself, you're worth it, write/vent: suicicdeforum.com

Need help? Missiontohell

Do it, don't kill yourself. Only bad people could deserve, and not even, so YOU? NO WAY!

See you soon peep' :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ANd sorry for the typing. Too fats, Too much, too drunk? aha =  ) or maybe I"m just too hungry to write it all.