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My Godmother, uncle, and their daughters:

My Godmother was born in Oran, like my mother. She's 61 today. She was mostly raised by my great-grand-mother. I learnt it recently, by Melissa, her younger daughter. I didn't understand her attachment to the one I used to call the dragon. I think she was raised catholic, and strictly, she always cared what people would talk. She didn't talk about issues, it's something as you can see, very commonplace in that family. She would ignore her husband to have been unfaithful, but I'm not sure. She's very depressed since my mother's death, but I think there were issues before already. She never got counseling, and unfortunately, her depression will probably never get better. 

Her husband would be the father of another girl, Berenice (a fake name again here), who would be about 23. It's their elder daughter, my cousin Samantha, who surprised him with another woman. He came himself from Yougoslavia (it was Yougoslavia then), and he drank, not much, but often, and I don't know if he was very happy, but he was a soft man, he treated us well. He played chess with me (tried because I was little), and made me do my math, which I hated. I felt safe there, and maybe I have a little the idea of what a family is because of the time I spent there. I was so relieved to leave my parents' apartment that for some months, I would wet my bed each night I spent there (I was about 4). But it was always ok, I would do better the next time, and I did, with patience. I was never bothered with being a righty or lefty there, Samantha is a lefty. I felt like a normal child. 

Until we left away with my mother, when I lost my home in a way, I grew up with my 3 cousins, kind of like they were my 3 sisters. Samantha took care of me a lot, and looked after me. Katherine taught me things, like hold a fork, or lace my shoes, and with Melissa I spent lots of time playing and doing craps. I learnt a trust code with her, "not to tell the parents".

The girls are trying to help me nowadays to uncover the truth. But I'm only in contact with Melissa. There seems to be a very good communication among the girls. They escaped the family curse apparently and are very close. 

Samantha has two children I knew, because I took care of them like brother and sister. Katherine has two children, the first I knew very few because he was little when I left, and the second I've never seen. Melissa has three children, the first I knew, and the other two I've never seen. It seems to me, even my three cousins, like a part of the family I don't know, and they have a very diffrent communication; at least they communicate. Although I should situate myself there, I'm not, I'm with the elder, but without sharing their secrets. I belong nowhere.